I have no idea what I want to be any more. I went from being quite career orientated to just wanting an easy life. This doesn't mean I lack ambition, I am writing a book at present and nothing would please me more to get it out there - and in some way shape or form I believe that I will.
As a career though, I don't think I am interested in climbing any ladders, I recently read "the trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you are still a rat". I don't totally believe that is true, there are many successful people with ethics that do well in the race, but I have seen so many, including myself, get hurt. I have worked in the events and music industry, the third sector and finally found I was at my happiest when I was working with animals and yet I still want to stay at the bottom, no ambition to climb any higher.
I am as happy as I have been in a long time. I am thirty five, nearly thirty six and it was only a year or so ago that I met a lovely man I think I am going to spend the rest of my life with. I am on the lowest wage I have ever been on (minimum in fact) and that is a struggle I won't deny. But honestly if I could work part time, make jam, garden, look after my animals and write my book I would be chuffed to pieces. What has happened to me? Well whatever it is, I like it!
We all need to make more time for each other and for ourselves. We need to stop getting hung up on what we think we should be and just focus on what we enjoy.
